First I’d like to say thank you to my customers, the first shop opening of the year went really great and I am excited to make more, especially custom items.
So, today is a rainy Thursday in Fresno and I find myself reflecting on a lot. I think it’s human nature to see the new year as a new start and give ourselves new goals to work on. However I also feel like some of these goals are unattainable and if we can’t immediately figure them out we give up on them and throw in the towel. This year I have set very small, reachable goals in front of me and also told the universe the things I desire. Paying off my car, spending son’s spring break on a family trip, working on my passions, etc. Yes, it would be phenomenal to lose weight and workout everyday and eat perfect meals every day but I know myself. I know I’m better practicing intuitive eating rather than dieting, and being active in ways that are meaningful to me rather than working out at a gym. Those things work better for me, and something else might work better for you. You have to truly listen to your own body and brain and figure out what you need and not become so comparative of what others are doing, especially those you don’t even know and just envy.
I also had a friend talk to me yesterday about not being a people pleaser, which I do so much that I end up feeling like there isn’t much of me left for myself. That’s something completely attainable I can work on.
Anyway, those are the thoughts I’ve been processing. I hope you all have a great Thursday!
Hello again, it has been awhile. Let me re-introduce myself. I am Robyn Martinez and I am an artist from the California Central Valley, currently based in Fresno.
I used to blog a lot, mostly about family, photography, lifestyle and most of all about Disney. I plan on getting back to it a lot this year but I want to touch on some things that happened in 2019 and let you get to know me a bit….here goes nothing!
In 2019 my small shop where I sell handmade items really took off and I was able to create things I truly love for other Disney lovers and I started to get to know my customer base pretty well. I have been my own boss for awhile now with photography and previously event planning, so this was a natural progression for me. I learned how to sew more creative things and made my own patterns and even went all in on a heavy duty sewing machine. I spent hours each night searching for interesting and unique fabrics and spent countless hours trying to come up with things for my shop that set me apart and made me feel good when I was working on them.
While I was doing all this small shop work I managed to make some very amazing friends and spent a lot of time in SoCal getting to know them and I am truly a very lucky person. I never knew that in my 30’s I’d finally have a real group of friends who liked me for who I am and wanted to spend time with me. Growing up I was extremely aware that I was weird; my sense of humor was weird, my style was weird, my taste in music and art was weird, and I was just not ever going to fit into the box society builds for us. I was constantly walking the tightrope of trying extremely hard and doing a lot of things alone. I do NOT regret being a weirdo at all, in fact I truly have come to embrace it about myself.
So this past year I found my ultimate group of fellow weirdos. Humans who know how to just dive into a friendship and really let people be themselves. I have lost a few friends along the way…no hard feelings to them. Some people are only meant to be in your life for a short amount of time for very specific reason like growth and learning. I feel very confident in my own self worth, especially lately. I know what I want and for the most part I know who I am.
In 2019 I did a lot of family bonding. I had losses that I grieve deeply and I have family coming back into my life that I was missing for so long. My son and husband have been doing amazing. My husband started a new job and even got to travel to a few places for work, which is a big deal for someone who works remotely. Ben turned 10 this year and got to be involved in robotics at school as well as percussion in band. My younger brother came to stay with us for awhile and I was able to see him get his driver licence, buy his own car, get a new job and thrive in college. He is currently packing to move into his very first apartment. I feel like despite the difficulties 2019 threw at us my family came together and became stronger.
In the late fall of 2019 I started working at a new restaurant here in Fresno, Brothers Ramen. The owners are friends of mine and worked so long on this new business and I am very proud to be apart of their journey. I work in the front, taking orders and serving customers. It has been three months and I can honestly say I still enjoy clocking in for every single shift, the owners treat us all really well and I like to get out of the house and be in the community a bit more. Plus the food is amazing.
Anyway, I can’t fit an entire year into one blog post but I do plan on utilizing this blog a lot more in the months to come. I hope you enjoy following along with me and my weird little life.
PS: My shop is currently open for the first time this year, feel free to check it out! CLICK HERE